So everything was going good, finally accepted and gained the courage to do this whole single-parent thing.

A couple of days ago, the FOB called me to see how I was doing. I was kind of relieved he called, thinking we could be civil toward one another. I was TOTALLY WRONG. So he tells me he let HIS OTHER BABY’S MAMMA KNOW I WAS EXPECTING. I was MAD because he TOLD her because I feel IT IS NONE OF HER BUSINESS and also, HE SHOULD HAVE TALKED TO ME FIRST.  He said she had a right to know regardless if him and I talked about it first.

AM I WRONG FOR BEING COMPLETELY PISSED OFF?  FIRST OFF, HE SHOULD HAVE TALKED TO ME FIRST. SECOND, WHY IS HE TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT ME BEING PREGNANT WHEN HE STATED HIMSELF HE DIDN’T WANT ANOTHER BABY AND BASICALLY DOESN’T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT? THEN HE TELLS ME THAT HE’LL LET ME KNOW IN THE FUTURE IF HE’S GOING TO BE THERE FOR THE BABY. HE IS CONFUSING ME BECAUSE ONE MINUTE, HE IS FREAKING OUT, ASKING ME TO GET AN ABORTION. THEN THE NEXT, HE’S GOING TO LET ME KNOW IF HE’S GOING TO BE THERE FOR MY BABY.  THEN HE DECIDES TO TELL ME THAT HIM AND HIS BABY MOMMA ARE TALKING AND TRYING TO WORK THINGS OUT. I’VE COME TO TERMS THAT HIM AND I WERE ONCE GOOD FRIENDS, NEVER TOGETHER AND I DON’T THINK WILL EVER BE. BUT WHY IS IT MY BUSINESS WHO HE’S WITH OR TALKING TO WHEN I COULD CARELESS.  I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO MAKE OF THE SITUATION.  LIKE WHY CAN’T HE JUST GROW UP AND UNDERSTAND I DON’T WANT TO BE WITH HIM?

BUT AS FOR NOW, I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO DO. JUST TALKING TO HIM STRESSES ME OUT. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!