So, on Friday I went to the doctor.

I told him everything and he said, let’s get a urine sample. He tested it and it was positive. Then he’s like ‘Well, to be on the safe side and to be positive, let’s get some blood too.’ So he took some blood. I am so scared. As he told me everything to do and not to do-who to talk to and what my options were-I sat there. Numb. I am pregnant…..I have to tell the father and my family. And the guy that I started seeing. Everything started spiraling outta control. I don’t know what to do. If I have this child, my parents will never look at me the same way again. And I’ll lose the guy I’m seeing. And I’ll have to have my ex (to whom I hate) back in my life. I don’t know what to do…I’ve never been one to think about abortion-but when he told me it was positive all I could think of was how I can’t bring a baby into my life right now. But I can’t stand abortion. So if I preach so loudly against it and go and do it, I’m a hypocrite. I don’t know what to do. I’m so scared. I was started on prenatal vitamins and he set up a date for me to get examined by a doctor in my town. All of it starts tomorrow (Monday) morning. My entire world will spin out of control or will go back on the axle.

I really don’t know what to do.