My boyfriend told me at school that he’s coming over after work. Well, the ‘after work’ time was up and passed, so I texted our friend, asking if he’d heard from him and if he was with him. He said yep, and that his phone had died.

Well, of course with my pregnancy emotions, and Jake kind of lying to me… I exploded on both of them and just kept on going. Until I stopped and thought about what I did, so then I started apologizing and whatnot. Then, he texted me off his friend’s phone, angry at me for saying/thinking what I did. I then was already crying, but hearing that from him upset me more.

I feel like crap now because I was the one pissed at him for lying to me, but now he’s pissed at me. I hate this! )’: So I asked him to come over tomorrow so we can talk about it, because we gotta start acting bigger with a kid coming into the world, and that I wrote him something. (I wrote him a 2-page letter explaining my views on this, and why I did what I did/said, and just hoping he understands a bit more)

I’m scared he’s not going to want to see me anymore ): I’m scared about losing him. Like, idk.. I really don’t know what to say anymore… Tomorrow is also our 10 months… I’ll ttyl. ):

Monday- Doctor’s appointment, then getting glasses.

Update after that.