14 years ago I had an abortion. I have regretted it since the moment it happened. Since that time I have married the man I was with at that time, had two children, lost two others in utero… all the while struggling to come to terms with what I did. I am an orthodox Jewish Woman, although I was not really religious at the time. I read a lot.. I  read it was ok to have an abortion.. It was ok to do what I felt was best for me. We had no money. We had a relationship that neither of us thought would work out. He did not want the baby….

Having the abortion was a huge mistake. It was murder plain and simple. I paid someone $300.00 to tear apart an innocent baby, tear it apart in what should have been the safest place in the world, tear it apart limb from limb and throw it away. That is the TRUTH of abortion. Plain and simple.

There are many options to dealing with a pregnancy you had not planned on. There are options for dealing with a boyfriend or husband who does not want the baby.

If I could go back in time and talk to myself I would say.

1) You can do this. You are woman and you are strong. You have more friends than you realize.. everyone does. You have family.. some will help.

2) It is murder.. against the bible, against torah, against the noahide laws.. It is unforgivable by G0d in this life and the next. 

3) You will regret it forever, period.

4) Don’t do it.. Please… don’t do it. G-d has gotten you this far. He has given you food each day and a roof over your head, right? You breath every day? Your heart is beating? He will take care of this too.. Have faith… have Emuna (pure and complete trust in God).. He WILL take care of you and the baby.. He will… period.

Peace and Blessings,

-me