December, I found out I was pregnant with a lad I was seeing…
I thought the world of him. But before we met, he lost his job and was on the dole smoking weed,
but I always had hopes he’d changed…

When I found out I was pregnant, we were both excited. But then he changed, started worrying, and didn’t seem as committed!

My ex found out I was pregnant and adamant on keeping it. I was 19 and worked full-time with a caring and stable family behind me, even though they didn’t approve. They were happy, sometimes!
But my ex made me think of my past and that I couldn’t cope with a baby.
Gradually, he made me think I couldn’t handle myself, never mind a baby…
He promised he’d be there for me and we’d have a future with a stable life.
I believed him.

So at 17 weeks pregnant, I went to the hospital and had to get scanned and go through the mental and physical pain of something I’ll never forget!

Neither the father nor my ex wanted to know… I felt like such a horrible selfish naive person…

6 months on and I feel like I can’t move on. I’ve tried and still speak to the could-be father but I constantly feel guilty that there could be my baby next to me, full of life and for me to care for.
I feel lost, guilty, scared, and confused!! I have no idea how to feel, to be honest…