I’m 17 years old and I just found out that I’m pregnant once “again”.

I’m not mad or disappointed or angry with myself, but I am scared. I’ve been pregnant twice before and both times, I had an abortion. I know you’re probably thinking what’s wrong with me, but there was nothing I could really do. I first got pregnant when I was 15 and I didn’t keep it because I was listening to my parents and how everybody said it was a bad idea to keep it. So I went along with it and got an abortion. I had never been so hurt in my life.

Then I got pregnant again about 4 to 5 months later and boy, was I planning on keeping this one. I told my parents when I was about 3 months and my dad kicked me out. I went to go live with my brother but he said that I could only stay there if I wasn’t going 2 keep the baby. I didn’t care about what they were saying, I was still planning on keeping my baby anyway. Until I was 2 weeks before I turned 4 months, my baby father told me that we couldn’t afford a baby and that he didn’t want to be selfish and let the baby suffer. So with me having no money or no place to stay unless I got another abortion, I went along with it.

It’s now been a year and two months since I’ve been pregnant and I just found out 3 days ago that I’m pregnant again. Yes, by the same person! I’m a senior in high school and I’m keeping my baby this time. Nobody can change my mind what so ever. I’m back at this again but the difference is now, I’m focused and determined to keep my baby and be the best mother I can be.