So my life right now is krazie. I never thought that I would be dealing with all this stuff at the age of 21… I thought I would be chillin’; going to clubs, drinking up a storm, and having freedom… For some reason today, it really hit me. I’m a MOM of 2 beautiful daughters and a wife to the most wonderful husband who is way older than me. Sometimes I have grudges against him because he is going to be 29 in Oct and he lived his life at 21, partied, and had the time of his life…
I’m not saying what I did was a mistake. I just should have waited… I love my kids, don’t get me wrong, but sometimes I feel like this wasn’t meant for me. But then again, if it wasn’t for my kids, I would probably be dead at some hotel …. Ahhh……..I don’t know why I feel like this right now. Maybe I’m missing my grandma. She should be here watching my kids grow up and she should have been at my wedding if she could have waited another month.. Mann, I’m keeping so much in it’s not even funniee… I’m at work. It’s only 9:10 pm. I’m off at 10 pm and I want to go home NOW……….. Then I have to wake up at 5 am to get ready for school, which is another thing that is bugging me ….. I know I can do it but it’s just so time-consuming. I could be with my kids …..this is soo kraziee…
Whoever is reading this, you might be confused because I KNOW IAM!!!!!!
Soo when I use protection, I guess it really doesn’t protect…
Me and my husband do not plan on having any more until I’m 25. I’m 21 right now. I already have 2 sweethearts and I don’t plan at the moment to have any more. I couldn’t take the Plan B pill because I already took it 2 months ago when this happened before. And NO, it wasn’t cheap condoms. Those things were freaking expensive. Well anywho, I got my period 2x in one month and I’m supposed to start this month and haven’t yet…
Soo, please pray that I get it… And if I’m pregos, i want a BOY cause my husband seems to only make GIRLS. lol…
I’m not trying to sound rude, but for those who WANT a baby and you’re still in school, you are KRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
BABY”s are a precious gift but they are EXPENSIVE and you need a job and SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!!! And an education. A baby is not just for looks. You have to wake up early in the morning. You have to feed them first, get them ready, then think about yourself…
It’s really hard work for those who are trying to get pregnant on PURPOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THINK FIRST BEFORE YOU OPEN YOUR LEGS!!!!…
So my grandma died on Monday.
I’m really really sad because my wedding is next month and that’s all she talked about. I don’t know what to do right now. I’m a wreck, plus I have to take care of my babies… (daddy helps A LOT) but still….. I’m at work and just want to cry because my grandma was supposed to see me walk down the aisle with the man she really liked and wanted me to marry.
It’s not fair everything always has to happen to me when things are going GREAT!!!
I feel like everything is happening soo fast.
I still have a lot to do for my wedding. My finals for my school are this week and I haven’t even had the time to study cause there is no quiet room in my house. I work all the time, which is why I’m writing this because I’m on my lunch and then I go back to screaming people on the phone because I do work at a call center, lucky me… Well anywho, I have to get back my lunch is over…
(I never get to finish anything )
