Dear Baby:

I’m sorry I’m so young, I’m sorry I’m not married, I’m sorry everyone is going to think we won’t make it.

But you’re so new to me, and already you’re changing my life, you’re mine okay? And this means I will take care of you. I found out about you today, although I kinda knew for a while now. I think you’re two months now. We’ll find out for sure when I get to see you next week in our first sonogram. Babe I can’t wait to meet you, I know you’re going to be happy with me. And Angel too, he’s going to be a great daddy to you, I can assure you of that. He’s funny, and he’s responsible, and although you scare him he loves you too, and he’s excited to meet you. I hope you have his smile. You’re going to be so beautiful, and I can’t wait to see everything you are going to teach me I’m going to be so happy with you. I know it’s gonna be hard baby, but I’m not gonna let us be unhappy. I love you so much, more than anything and I’m not gonna let anything hurt you.

Baby, your mommy will do anything for you and I feel like we already know each other :-*

So many new feelings..

It’s a scary thing, finding out I’m seventeen and pregnant.

Sure I’ve seen my friends have their babies and I’ve told them how cute they are, and of course I’ve watched the show, saying ahh at the cute parts and feeling sad during their struggles… But now it’s me. Now it’s me with two hearts beating inside of one body. Me who’s tired, and sluggish, and hungry, really hungry. All my plans, all my dreams, they are now being rearranged because I’m not just taking care of me now. And it’s exciting as well as terrifying, but abortion isn’t an option for me. I’ve always said I am pro-choice, but my choice is to keep the beautiful baby inside of me. I know most people say that teen pregnancies are a sin and that me and my boyfriend are too young to be in love, we won’t make it. But I know him, and I know I can’t tell the future but I do know that no matter where life takes us, he’s going to be there for his baby girl or boy.

Ugh, I’m filled with mixed emotions and questions and anxiety.