So I wonder now what to do. How to move on, how to live my life with such a sin.
I ask God for forgiveness yet I wonder if I really am forgiven. School is so hard. I constantly find myself looking at him. I just wanna scream at him and make him hurt like he has done to me. Yet, he knows nothing. He wonders why I’m so mad. This is possibly the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I often cry and I think I honestly would have killed myself without my boyfriend’s support and love. I start seeing a counselor next week. I think. I don’t know when, but soon, I hope. I know I did the right thing, but I also know I won’t ever get to hold my little baby. I keep thinking of the way I felt in the recovery room, so empty. I wondered, is it over? Why do I feel so sick? As I asked for a spew bag, she passed me a small tablet to place under my tongue, which made it so much worse. I sat in a little ball and cried my heart out. I placed my hands on my tummy and prayed to the Lord above.
Forgive me, Lord. I have sinned.
So I’ve been scrolling through the process I’m about to go through and I’m trying to get around it in my head what I’m about to do.
Tomorrow I will abort my child. I’m 9 weeks pregnant and 16 years young. I’ve never been more scared in my life. Today is Wednesday and I found out I was pregnant on Saturday. I’m amazed with the support I have had from my family and my boyfriend now even though it isn’t even his child. I cry every day because aborting goes against everything in my religion and everything I’ve ever really believed in.
I’m really scared and tomorrow, my mother or boyfriend cant come to the abortion.
so iv been scrolling through the process im about to go through and im trying to get around it in my head what im about to do. tomorrow i will abort my child im 9weeks pregnent and 16years young iv never been more scared in my life today is wednesday and i found out i was pregnent on saturday. im amazed with the suport i have had from my family and my boyfriend now even tho it isnt even his child. i cry everyday because aborting goes against everything in my religion and everything iv ever really believed in. im really scared and tomorrow my mother or boyfriend cant come to the abortion.
