I feel really lost at the moment.
You all know that I already have 2 children and I’m a single mother. Well, I found out yesterday that I am pregnant with twins. I am around 8 weeks already and I’m extremely worried. I didn’t want any more kids. I have 2 healthy, happy children. No one knows other than me and the doctor and I’m way too scared to tell the father. I don’t know what to do. I’ve done this twice before, but this just feels so different. I don’t believe in abortion and I don’t really want to hand these kids over to complete strangers to be raised. I’m going to have 4 kids under the age of 3 and I’m only going to be 18!
I guess I just needed to tell someone because it’s killing me keeping it inside.
Hi, I was only 14 when I fell pregnant with my now 2-year-old daughter.
I was dating her father. I thought he was 20, but when I was 6 months pregnant, the truth came out and he turned out to be 31! I gave him the option to leave and never come back or I have him charged. He left happily. I was 15 when I gave birth. She was a day early, weighed 8.3 pounds, and was 52 cm long. She was the most beautiful little girl I had ever laid eyes on. I enjoyed every moment of being a single mum, even the sleepless nights, lol. Her father has seen her now and then. I gave him the option of seeing her, but he just does not bother. When I was 16, I fell pregnant with a ”good friend”. It was not planned one bit (he was told he would never have children). When I found out I was pregnant. I went into shock.
My parents had just kicked me out and I had to leave my daughter with them because I had nowhere to go and did not want her on the street when she could be indoors and safe. I knew he was never going to be a decent father. He is a heavy drug user and a slob. I don’t believe in abortions and I didn’t want to hand my child over to complete strangers knowing I might never see him again. I eventually moved into my brother’s house with my daughter and I became the main carer for my nephew who is 5 weeks younger than my daughter. I enjoyed it. It was a good experience and got me ready for 2 children. When I was 5 months pregnant, I moved into my own 3-bedroom house and it was great. I finally got to know my real daughter because I didn’t have everyone around us 24/7. On October 18th, I was induced due to my son not growing properly. I gave birth to him after 9 hours of labor at 4:16 am on the 19th of October (my best friend’s birthday and my ex’s). He weighed 6.7 pounds and was 46.5 cm long. He needed oxygen because his cord was wrapped so tightly around his neck, but he was beautiful and he was mine. He is now 6 months old and my daughter and him adore each other.
I am currently under a lot of stress because of his father wanting full custody. I have allowed him to come over when he wants to see our son, but I refuse to let him take him anywhere. He has only seen him once in his 6 months of life because he is too lazy and will not stop the drugs. I try to do my best as a mum, but I am not perfect. My kids are healthy and happy, the bills are paid on time, there’s food in the cupboard, and they have everything they need and extra, so I can’t be doing too bad lol.
I guess I just needed to get my story out and off my chest because a lot of people instantly think I am a bad mum because I am young so I just don’t open my mouth. I do not plan on any more kids. I have 2 healthy kids, so why push my luck? Thanks for listening.
