I need help.

I’ve just found out I’m pregnant with my boyfriend whom I love completely, I was devastated. The problem is he’s Indian, His parents are planning on him getting an arranged marriage next year and we’ve always known this. He says no matter what I do, he will support me, but I know that if I carry on with this pregnancy, his whole family will disown him. I’ll rip his life apart and he’ll be left with nothing. I love him sooo much and I can’t bear to do this to him. So I’ve told him and my dad I’ll have an abortion. My dad thinks it’s the best option, my partner hates himself for me going through all this, and I’m so torn. I know I can’t have this baby, it would cause too much heartache, but the idea of a termination is killing me I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know if I’ll be strong enough to cope with all this. I really wish I could talk to my mum about it but it is better she doesn’t know.