About a month or so ago, I had been throwing up and not feeling well for three weeks. My period has never been regular so I didn’t think anything of it when it was late, I thought that I was really sick so I went to see my doctor only to find out that I had been so sick because I was pregnant. Right now, I’m approximately 14 weeks, but not completely sure. My doctor did not want me to have an ultrasound until I had made my decision as she didn’t want it to affect what I chose to do. I decided I needed to set myself a deadline. So I called and made an abortion appointment so I would know when I had to make my decision by.

My boyfriend and I have been together for over a year and a half and have been living together for 8 months. He says he supports whatever decision I make and will be here for me, but he also thinks that I should get an abortion. I am Catholic so I have always been raised to be against abortion, but now that I am in the situation I really don’t know what I should do, I don’t want to have an abortion because I’m really scared and I don’t want to do it and then regret it right after because I will regret it for the rest of my life. If I keep the baby, I’m just afraid I won’t be able to give them the life they deserve, but I don’t know if I could not have it at the same time

I am still considering adoption if I do go through with my pregnancy, but I am really afraid that I will change my mind. I know I could only handle an open adoption, and I know I do have the time to change my mind right after, but I don’t want to hurt the family who was going to adopt my baby, I really need some advice and I don’t have much longer to make a decision, only a few days left. But I was wondering if anyone out there had any advice, if they’ve been in my situation before, and how maybe how their decision affected them.

It really is such a major and hard decision. And I just can’t get my thoughts together. They’re just all over the place