Hi, I’m pregnant.
I am 15 years old and am under a lot of pressure to abort. I flat-out refuse to murder my innocent child, but others do not see it that way. I have lost too many friends and do not wish to cause any more trouble, but that will spell abortion. Abortion is wrong in every way, shape, and form and I despise it. Why can’t my friends, teachers, and relatives see it that way? The only light in this is my boyfriend. He is supporting me financially and has recently been kicked out and completely cut off by his parents, who he just learned today are not his actual parents. He is living with me because my dad is compassionate enough to take him in. Anyways, how do I get others off of my back? I’ve made my decision, but they won’t take no for an answer.
How do I get others to see it the way I see it? And if not, to at least come to terms with my decision?
Dear Mommy,
I know you never got the chance to hold me, to see me smile, to look into my eyes… And I know that the pain of regret rips through your heart every day because you miss me. But Mommy, I want to tell you that I love you so much and I forgive you.
I understand that you were so very scared, and didn’t know what to do. It hurt me because I wanted to be with you, but Mommy, it’s OK now. I’m with the angels in heaven and I am happy and laughing. It hurts my tiny heart to look down from heaven and see you so sad, Mommy. I wish that you knew how much I love you and adore you and look forward to meeting you one day!
Oh Mommy, please please don’t cry. I know how sorry you are, i know how much you wish you could take that decision back. But I forgive you mommy. I forgive you for everything.. and God forgives you too. Now mommy, please try to forgive yourself, for me. It hurts me to see you still hurting so badly. You did what you felt was best.. and I understand. It was so scary and confusing for you. God has so much in store for your life, Mommy, ’cause you are so so special!
Just keep holding on, and try every day to find new reasons to smile. ‘Cause when you smile, Mommy, I smile too. And when you laugh, I giggle. Never give up, Mommy, because I won’t give up on you! I can’t wait to meet you one day! I know you miss me, and you have regrets… But everything will be OK. I promise. You are completely forgiven and ALWAYS loved. I will be with you in your heart forever, Mommy. I will always be there.
Until we meet and embrace…
Your little angel
I have become so convincing with the mask i wear. Can anyone else relate to this?
Anyone ever wish there was a place where you could actually take the “Life is fine. Things are fine. I am fine” mask off and just be REAL? And all without being judged or feeling like a failure? Well, there is… I understand the pain of having feelings eating away at you inside, but being afraid to let them out. I’m here anytime for you guys. You can always be real with me. Let’s leave the masks for Halloween.
“Thousands of tears from the sky beat against my skin… I’m wonderin’ why. Why on earth am I here?? No one sees what i’m feelin’.. They all trust me, but have no reason.. It’s cold like death, but i’m still breathin’. Fallin’ into nothing; grasping for anything; beggin’ for someone; but no one’s listening.
Do they see me slippin’ away? Feel me growin’ cold? I’m puttin’ on the performance of a lifetime. I doubt they’ll ever know. That i feel this rage, this pain, this guilt… And over what?? All problems seem to lie within myself.
Do they see beneath the smile, the lines my tears have made? Do they notice the sparkle in my eyes, how it’s faded into grey? Bet they’d never guess, that though I do my very best, I’m just as jacked up, screwed up, chained up, and beat up as the rest. No longer the perfect, innocent, angelic girl they all expect to see. So many mistakes… If they only knew the darkness that lurks inside of me.
Beggin’ for a hero to save whatever I have left… to breathe life into my lungs, pump hope into my veins… save me from this living death.”
I’ve given killing myself so much thought recently and tried to again so many times in the last few months that I’ve lost count. And I’m still here, where I don’t want to be. Alive.
The severity of the desire comes and goes during the day. And sometimes I’m fine for weeks and then all of a sudden< I’m back to square one. I’m so stressed and so tired and just fed up. I don’t want to live anymore and have to pretend that I’m perfect and happy and have my act together.
Because I am so messed up, it’s not even funny anymore.
Hi. I am NOT pregnant & I do NOT plan on getting pregnant. I am still a virgin. I made this account because I have read some of your stories and they are very heart-breaking.
I would love to help anyone I can in the best way I can. Yes, some of you might be saying, “Well, she has never gone through what I am going through how would she know?” That’s very true. I have never gone through what you have gone through, but I will be there to help you as much as I possibly can. I will give you advice, help you make decisions, and just be there for you when you’re feeling down and out. Remember you have a little child growing in your precious womb whatever you decide to do with it all comes down to your DECISION. You have to live with it for the rest of your life. Whether it’s keeping your little one, giving it up for adoption, and, if necessary, having an abortion. I hope you do what you think is what’s right …. If you need any help at all just leave me a message and I will surely answer it.
You’re not just another statistic. You and your child are something special.
Dear Mommy,
I know I did not get the chance to stay with you for long… but I felt your love for me. And I love you with every bit of my tiny heart. I know you miss me, but Mommy, please don’t cry. I am happy and healthy and laughing where I am. There are no tears here. I can’t wait to see you when you get here! You can rock me in your lap, and sing me to sleep. You’ll get to hear me call you “mama” and we will be together forever. Please be strong for me, mommy. I know you wanted me to stay with you, but I’m in a better place now. God wanted me to be with Him and all the angels… but I’m always with you too, Mommy. I’m in your heart, and when you smile, I’m smiling too 🙂 When you laugh, I giggle. When you cry, I am so sad. Keep trusting God Mommy, he knows what is best. This is the place that He wanted me to be… and He whispered in my ear the plans he has for you. Oh Mommy, I wish you could know what He has planned for the rest of your life. It’s so amazing, so keep hoping.. it may not seem like it right now mommy, but you will find happiness again. I will be here waiting for you.. and He will hold me in His arms until the time comes for you to be with me again. You can miss me Mommy, because I miss you too, but don’t stop living. You have to keep on going… for me. I love you so much Mommy!!
Until we meet again…
-Your little guardian angel
