So I have good news and that is my cousin decided to keep her baby after all… The babyfather bailed (who’da thought it!?) But she is being a Stand-up Girl and deciding that she is not going to sacrifice the life of her baby for a guy that isn’t there to truly love and care for her. Three cheers!…
Hopefully, she won’t change her mind… I doubt she will… good.
As for me, I have a new-found optimism. And I’m so happy. It feels amazing, and I can’t help but wear a big grin on my face. I am in love with the most wonderful, amazing, loving, caring, affectionate, thoughtful (and the list goes on and on) man in the world. I feel so blessed and so lucky, and I know that God has His hands at work in our lives… 😀
When I first came to this site, I was so down and depressed about the fact I had not conceived yet and my longing for a baby had taken me over in a cloud of sadness, feelings of inadequacy and yearning (with a little added bit of jealousy for those who have conceived/have a baby on top :dry: ). I couldn’t see past what I wanted and how I pictured everything to be and the want to feel it right now at this moment. But God showed me something and now I’m so much more at ease… I still want a baby and I know it will happen very soon but I’m no longer getting upset or depressed at the thought of it happening in a couple months from now. I’ve decided that in each new year, we will embark on something new. This year, our baby. Next year, buying our house together and then the year after, getting married. God has shown me that he will bless us in time and that his way is so much better than the confused picture that held a little bit of dread. So this New Year, I have three resolutions…Love God, Love my Husband, Make our baby. Simple…uncomplicated…prepared for…and Blessed
Step by step by step by step and with God’s blessing and guidance…we’ll get there… :]
Today, my daughter’s father went to jail.
I wish he comes home soon. We need him.
Hi. I have a 2-month-old baby boy named Lucas.
I am still going to school, but it is hard. I never have time to do my homework and stuff, and then my teachers yell at me for not having it. I’m kinda stuck between school and a baby.
HELP!
I’m 9 weeks pregnant and I’m 15…
My parents don’t know yet and it feels like the biggest weight to carry because it is like mental agony. I’ve never kept something this big from my mom. And the fact that my boyfriend’s parents hate him and yell at him constantly about stuff he has done in the past. I’ve already had 2 mental breakdowns in the past 2 weeks… I’m so scared. I’m so stressed, and at the same time, I’m so happy because I have my boyfriend to support me.
I just need to tell them but I don’t know how…
I’ve been with this kid for about two years. I can honestly say I love him with every single ounce of my being. I’ve spent a lot of time obsessing over him. I made him my whole life. He’s gorgeous, charming, and everything I’ve ever wanted. Plus on top of everything, he accepted me and with that, I accepted myself … finally.
He began to change over a short amount of time, and not in a good way either. I’m not sure if I was in too deep then to leave or if I just wanted to be the one who made everything better for him. He started calling me names, putting his hands on me, and a week after I lost my virginity to him, he cheated on me and slept with another girl. No matter what he did to me, I would take him back. I wasn’t okay without him. I didn’t know who I was, and because of that, it was easy to get back with him and let him continue to mold me.
Pretty soon, I was so weak that he controlled everything about me. I lost my friends, spent time in jail, upset my family, and it didn’t affect me because he was still my boyfriend. But he wasn’t a boyfriend at all. He wasn’t there for me and he abused me in every way possible. The cheating continued and my self worth also continued to deteriorate. I figured if I got pregnant with his child if he left the pain of ending the relationship would be a lot easier. After I got pregnant the abuse and cheating just got worse. And leaving the relationship was not any easier. The last time he cheated on me, I gave up. I didn’t scream and throw fits so he could see my anger, I didn’t fight the girl like I had so many times in the past, and I never let him see a tear fall from my eyes. I just was gone. I put myself together the best I could and never talked to him again.
This is all still really recent so I’m scared. I’m afraid to fall back into his trap when I feel empty. I’m afraid of one more time were I find myself screaming “Don’t hurt my baby” while he throws me and his child around, and I’m afraid of my little boy knowing this man. I’m now six months pregnant and facing the biggest struggle of my life. Raising a child alone doesn’t scare me, but being without him destroys me. I’ve been through things people would consider a lot harder than this but this strikes me as the worst possible situation.
I pray to God for strength because without it, I will make a lot of bad decisions for me and my son.
Okay, so I thought I might be pregnant yesterday, but my symptoms have stopped, which means it was probably all due to the fact that my period is coming (supposed to be on the 26th?)
I guess I might be overreacting, but part of me is losing hope…I’m just so fed up of being so excited of the slightest twinge, the minute change, and the glimmer of hope that I might be pregnant. I sit here and make up excuses why I haven’t felt other symptoms ‘Oh it’s not the same for everyone,’ ‘as time goes on you’ll get those symptoms.’ All that BS is just doing my head in and I know my fiancé wants a baby as much as I do but it feels like I’m so much more disappointed when I find out I’m not pregnant. Maybe because he’ s not worried and knows it will happen soon. I don’t know.
Am I too impatient?? Should I leave it to God and know that it will happen when the time is right, YES… Does it take away the disappointment I feel when I get a negative pregnancy test?? NO… Does it stop me worrying that after all this, I might not be actually able to have kids?? NO…
I can’t help but feel sad even if it is stupid to feel that way!……. (man I’m sooooooooo tired right now)
