It seems like my life is changing in so many ways!
Three years ago, I was so young and so out of the loop. Today, it seems I have grown so much by the events in my life! I am who I am today because of everything that has happened! I was raped countless times, by 2 guys I trusted very much! I was betrayed and hurt, and thought I could never go back! I felt love, and then hurt. I was destroyed. I became the girl you would see alone, no friends, too shy to even answer a question asked by a teacher! I was the girl people would make fun of because I was ” different.” I was scared! I was left out of the loop, to become a danger to myself! I picked up cutting, and other habits, that later just hurt me! The scares I look at everyday remind me of the pain I have suffered. Family fighting because a way of life. It was as if I was so hurt that I felt dead. I was not willing to change because I didn’t want my hopes to fall and for me to be destroyed.
I met a guy who now I call my boyfriend! A guy who should be there is a meaning to live, and a live for me to lead. A future full of joy, and a heart to help others! I love who I am now, and I’m not that girl in the back of the room! I still suffer from dreams, back flashes, and other reminders of my past. But my present is bright! I now am 16 years young, and he is 17! Yes, we’re young but love in present and everyone can see it! He showed me he will and would never hurt me. I don’t have to hide my body, or who the real me is! I’m me now and I’m proud! I’m a rape survivor, I’m helping out people who are just like me. We now might be expecting a baby, and it’s scary to be young with a child, but it’s worth it! I’m so scared but I have him and he will never leave me! We’ve been through so much, and it brings us so much closer! I Love Him and we will love our baby!
Thanks for reading this!!
So I thought I was pregnant again before, about 2 months ago. Once again, I’m worried about being pregnant again. Only this time, I really want to be.
Why, I have no idea. I just do. I love being a mommy. But I’ve been having a lot of the symptoms: tiredness/fatigue, nausea, headaches, irritability, peeing a lot. All that fun stuff. I’m really hoping to be pregnant again, but I don’t have any idea if I am or not, because the symptoms might just be from my birth control or if I’m just thinking about it too much, or what. My period is due on the 17th, so if I don’t get it by August 1st, I will start to really worry about it. But I just really hope I am pregnant.
Tell me what you think.
I’m 18 and I had an abortion exactly a week ago. It was the worst decision of my life…
I hammered it into my head that abortion was for the best, and that a baby would be too much of a hassle. I can’t even describe the pain I’m in which I’m sure some of you also feel… I would give anything to have my baby back… It’s like there’s an emptiness inside of me that can never be filled. My mom has tried talking to me and she’s been supportive but some people are good at talking and giving advice and some people kind of just say the same generic thing over and over using different words. I’ve tried talking to my boyfriend and you said that I really just need to put it behind me, but that is really hard when you have a hole being eaten in your heart. I decided to look up information because I haven’t been sleeping and need something to do and I found a video on YouTube that really made me cry. Which I guess it was my fault for looking but it was a video of an abortion through an ultrasound view. It showed the baby being ripped to pieces and then I saw pictures of what the baby after its removed and almost none of the pictures were of a whole baby and it said that sometimes the baby’s heart is still beating when its being sucked through the tube…I’m sorry if this is too graphic but that made this so much more painful for me.
I’m on the verge of being depressed. I’ve given up on my friends, the ones that I thought I could trust but it turns out I couldn’t because they told other people after I asked and asked them not to. I am so ashamed and disgusted with myself. It was just a little tiny innocent baby. I was only 7 1/2 weeks pregnant but it still looked like a human and had a heart beat and was just learning to swim and kick. In fact, I’ve come to learn that they’re really active…and I killed it. I will never have another baby like it. It was unique. I don’t even deserve to have a baby…
I could never do this again no matter what. If someone offered me 400 million dollars, I wouldn’t do it… I just wish I would have had this same state of mind before…I would have been due February 19th. I feel like maybe I’m being overdramatic but I just can’t ever seeing myself being over it…. It was living inside of me! It was alive…was and I took its life. It was counting on me to protect it from harm and I murdered it… I can’t even live with myself. I just want to sleep for a really long time… I can’t even sleep for more than 2 hours. I can’t look at pregnant women or watch baby commercials or movies about babies and if I hear a suction vacuum, it tears me apart and I start hyperventilating…
I just need someone to talk to… anyone actually. Honestly, I need a hug from someone and for them to tell me things will get better. You can’t take back what you’ve done but it will get better, I promise… Maybe that’s just asking to much… And to add to this pressure, my boyfriend is already starting to ask for sex and I decided today that maybe it won’t bother me… Well, I was wrong. It felt horrible and I started crying hysterically…
I don’t know what to do… Someone please help me
I’m 18 and I’m unsure if I’m pregnant or not.
I haven’t had my menstrual cycle in 2 months. A week after I missed my cycle, I went to the doctor and they said I was not pregnant but the doctor said it takes a while to know. So the doctor said come back in 2-3 weeks, but a week after that, I bought a pregnancy test from the store and it said I was not pregnant. I’ve been sleeping a lot and I’ve been having cramps also. I don’t know what to do… My boyfriend believes I’m pregnant because he’s eating a lot more and he’s always sleeping like me. If I am pregnant, I’m keeping my child…
What do you all think about my situation? Do you all think I’m pregnant or something else is wrong?????
Hey, I’m only 15 and 6 months pregnant with my first baby boy.
During my first three months, I got morning sickness like normal or actually, I always got sick at night. Then at the end of my three months, it stopped. But here recently, I have been getting sick all the time. I can barely eat at times. Sometimes, it’s nothing but blood that comes up. I have been to the emergency room twice in the last three weeks and they tell me that it’s normal to just deal with it. They checked the baby’s heartbeat and everything with him was good.
I’m not sure what else to do. Somebody please help.
Hey everybody, what’s up? I’m 15 yrs. old and Tuesday, July the 3rd, I will be 6 months pregnant. My due date is October the 18th. I’m having a little boy.
I never thought I’d be the next pregnant teenage girl but I took that risk. Even before I found out that I was pregnant, I didn’t think that I was when I found out. I was shocked and terrified all at once. At first, my aunt was the only one that supported me but as the months passed, my mom and family slowwly came around. However, it’s still hard because I know that they are a little disappointed in me. They always said I’d be the one to do something with my life. I know I can still achieve all my dreams if I try but they don’t think so. For one, I’ve already been kicked out of two schools because they didn’t allow pregnancy. The father to my baby left me when I was barely a month. I never thought he’d stay but it still breaks my heart to know that I am carrying his baby inside me and he doesn’t even care. I cry a lot. I feel so empty and alone. I’m ashamed of myself and the pregnancy. I thought the days would get easier but they only get harder. Somedays I think to myself, please, am I really ready to raise a baby.
So what’s your story? Please tell me I’m not the only one that feels this way?????????????
