clearing some thoughts…

I have decided on aborting.

I’m somewhere between 12-16 weeks. At times, I feel as if though I have waited too long to proceed with what I have set my mind to. I’ve dealt with the crankiness, my body is going through unexpected changes, backaches, cramping, the works, to put it all in a nutshell.

Still, with all of this, I am afraid, just of the process in general…

scared as hell

so iv been scrolling through the process im about to go through and im trying to get around it in my head what im about to do. tomorrow i will abort my child im 9weeks pregnent and 16years young iv never been more scared in my life today is wednesday and i found out i was pregnent on saturday. im amazed with the suport i have had from my family and my boyfriend now even tho it isnt even his child. i cry everyday because aborting goes against everything in my religion and everything iv ever really believed in. im really scared and tomorrow my mother or boyfriend cant come to the abortion.

my son

I all I haven’t been in all but here is an update
I’m 27 weeks pregnant and it’s a boy!! I’m really excited and I can’t wait for my son’s arrival

short but to the point.. lol

December 11-14,2009.

I spent this past weekend at my soon to be in-laws. In which it was only 15 minutes away from my parents place made me un-easy, but I was able to survive.  We started off the weekend by arriving at my fiance’s parents place on friday night.  We settled straight into his old room and watched A Christmas Carol as the family movie for that night. Nestled in by warm blankets and surronded by the ones that I love made me feel so sure that this is what I wanted. I awoke at 3:30 am to find myself starving…so I got up and decided that it would be nice to make some food. I ate dill pickles and drank three glasses of hot chocolate.  Just to wake up my soon to be mother-in-law. She came out saw me out on the couch watching A Walk To Remember and laughed at what I was eating. She then intrigued me with stories of how that was exactly what she ate when she was pregnant with my fiance,James. I couldn’t help but smile. THat’s when my little nudger nudged. James’s mom felt my baby kick for the first time that night. And her and I fell asleep together on the couch. The rest of the weekend was spent with me helping cook, beating James’s older brother that came for a visit in video games, and getting my hair braided each day by his mom. I got beyond spoiled. I am now well rested and excited for the rest of my pregnancy. i absolutely ccan’t wait.  And neither can my further in-laws or my fiance. He’s so jumpy. He wants this baby out now.  But I think its mostly because he don’t wanna have sex while I’m pregnant. So he’s getting frustrated. I’ve tried helping him out..but he won’t allow anything. What do I do girls??? What do I do?