So I am 15 years old today, but in a few days, I’ll be 16!
I am 4.5 months pregnant. I found out when I was 7 weeks along. Me and my boyfriend have been on and off for 9 months! He is 19 and has a 2.5-year-old son. He has a lot of issues with his baby momma and his family. For him, I was his resting place, the only peace he had in his life. I wasn’t planning on getting pregnant. I didn’t want to make things any harder for him! I wanted to help him out with his son and his life. For the first 4 months of our relationship, I was on birth control. Then my insurance got taken off so I had to stop birth control. For a month, we were using the “pulling out” method and it worked for a whole month. Then we had an issue with me thinking he was cheating and we broke up for a month. With Me not knowing that soon I was going to find out I was pregnant.
A month later, I was a week late which was very rare to me. Never in my mind did it cross that I was pregnant. I was learning how to be on my own without him, actually getting over him when I took that CVS pregnancy test and it said positive! I can’t put into words how I felt. I didn’t know if I was going to cry or to laugh or to scream. I was just left without emotions whatsoever. I called him right away. I remember hearing his voice felt like peace, but soon I remembered what I had to tell him. When he found out, he came asap and took me to get another pregnancy test at a clinic, and there, it came positive too. We followed up for abortions. During the next week, I kept calling offices and offices and so expensive 350- 450- 600! Money neither him or me had. After 3 weeks, I started getting desperate! Worried, sad, knowing it was wrong what I was planning to do, I called some church friends and I made my decision to have my baby! After that, my boyfriend left me! I felt even worse. After a month he came back. He said he was gonna be there. Things started to change. We told my parents and me and him got better.
Today, I am 4.5 months pregnant. Me and him have a fair relationship. My parents are really hurt, but accept it. I am scared, but excited. I love my boyfriend with all my heart! He has changed for good. But I am scared of what the future holds.
