Hello I just turned 20 and I just found out that i am pregnant with my 3rd child.

I have a 4 year old and a 1 year old already, that I raise on my own and the fathers have given up rights… I have only been in my current relationship a month and am already pregnant. My boyfriend and I fight constantly as of the past 2 weeks. Especially over him going out with his buddies and over the way he does not like the way I parent my oldest… I am not strict enough, he says. I think it is too early for us to be having children and honestly, I am nowhere near ready to raise another baby if he ups and leaves like the other 2 did… I just started back at school to try and get an education and better my children’s and my life and now this… I have cried every night for the past weeks because I don’t want this baby. I don’t want to bring another child into a broken home… I have been trying to convince myself having an abortion would be the best thing I could do for me and this baby right now… And honestly, I believe it is…

My problem is I have always been so against abortion unless in Criminal or Particular situations… And in my case, I knew what I was doing. So shouldn’t I have to deal with the consequences…? I just am scared that I’m going to make the appointment to have it done and not go through with it.. I don’t know if I can live with myself knowing that I did that to baby and never let it have a chance.. I am so confused can someone please help me… Maybe tell me how you felt or what they do or anything you may think is helpful… Thanks