Hey girl,
I’m sorry to hear that you are going through this. It is obvious that your heart is very torn up. It’s ok. Even though this is hard you will be able to get through it.
You know, if just thinking about an abortion makes you cry now, just imagine how you will feel after you get an abortion. Having an abortion will not solve your problems, most likely it will only add to them. I think you need to listen to yourself and not put yourself through something that you already know you don’t want to do. Abortion is a permanent decision, and if you make that choice, there is no going back.
Being a mother would be difficult and it is understandable that you don’t want to have a “tie” to this guy. But, you know, sometimes doing the right thing is hard. I think that you can be a mother to your child. I think that you can do this. Your life with a child might look different than what you had expected, but different is not bad. Different can be better than you originally thought.
I think that you can do this.