so many questions…

ok, so last week i found out that i was like 5 1/2 weeks pregnant. I’m 20 years old and i’ll be 21 in june. I was shocked needless to say. I took a home pregnancy test because i had been feeling weird…u know like not your normal self; i took the test and i only saw one line! i was so relieved…until i saw the faint second line right next to it. I dropped the test and thought my world was going to crumble to the ground. I called my boyfriend( he’s 22, and will be 23 in April) whom i have been dating and living with for about a year now. I was terrfied, however he handled it fairly well. i told him i was going to go the the planned parenthood and have the results confirmed. I called my best friend she went with me and held my hand. The nurse did another test and not to my suprise that one was also positive. I had been taking my birth control and doing so good! and then i just stopped caring to many things started happing in my life and that was always the last thing on my mind. If i did take it was 2 days after i was suppose to and and the wrong time of the day. I was given all these brochures on the choices i could make because i was only at 5 1/2 weeks. The nurse also asked if i had insurance…i had nothing…no health insurance no dental nothing! she gave me a card and told me to call the phone number on it; i would be directly connected to a prenatal family plan advocate who could get me on my states health care paln. After taking in all this info i was stunned…left speechless. I wanted an abortion or at least that was what i was feeling at the time. I was given a pamphlet on abortion and the clinics in my community one of the clinics accepted the state insurance plan. Long story short Im on my states health plan, made an appointment at the abortion clinic, but my boyfriend and i are now second guessing what to do. He just got is dental asst. certification, works full time at a dental office plus goes to school and is now working on his Bachelors. I work at a furniture store where everyone is like family and supports whatever i do. I want Allen to finish school because he wants to be a dentist. I want to be able to help him but we just dont know what to do anymore. He supports me but has mood swings like i do and does nothing but shake from hypertension because he wants to help and be my back bone. We could probably have the baby but we would be finacially unstable and Allen would have to stop school for a while, and i would have to stop working full time. We dont really qualify for any of our state offered family help plans because "we make to much"…thats a bunch of b.s.! We have a week to decide the our future together. We know that we want to get married and have kids together….just not right now…i’m so confuessed and emotional about everything. please help;
Micah Lynn