Scared to death

My boyfriend and I have been together a year, a month into being together we found out we were pregnant. Im not completely against abortion, but i knew its not for me. I couldnt do that, so we were set on having the baby. I found out really early and at my 8 week drs appt. I went in so excited for my first ultrasound, only to hear the doctor tell me the babys heart stopped beating. I know I wasnt far a long at all it still emotionally killed me. so the doctor gave me misoprostal to induce the labor and get everything out. A LOT of cramping and bleeding, and more cramping and bleeding. It says its supposed to work in a couple days, to make a really long story short, within three and a half months I had to take the pills three seperate times, AND have a d&c, and still nothing was happening. The doctors finally said to just let it happen by itself. This was the worst, and hardest thing i’ve ever had to go through. After everything was done, my doctor put me on the pill, after everything I had just gone through I made sure I took the pill everyday, at the same exact time. Its been seven months since my miscarrige, and apparently, birth control doesnt work for me. I just found out I’m six weeks pregnant. Im scared out of my mind, I cant go through another miscarriage. I know that will completely break me. ince I found out early again the doctor said to come in at my 8th week, Ive never been this horrified in my life. I told everybody I was pregnant when I found out the first time, and now im scared to even tell myself because I dont want to go through all the emotional pain I went through before. Im not planning on telling anyone until Im three or four months. I have a lot of family and friends I can talk to but they wouldnt know what Im going through. I just really want to hear other girls stories and talk to someone about this.