scared

First thing you need to do is find out for sure if you are pregnant. there is no need to go through all this worry for nothing. If it is too early to find out if you could be pregnant i would just relax and wait until you can take a test. Otherwise i would go take a pregnancy test and see what happens.
Jessica

I would just like to share my story with you in hopes that it will help you with your descision. On February 25, 2005 I had a medical abortion. I was 7 and a 1/2 weeks pregnant. At the time I was in the middle of my senior year in high school. I went to Planned Parenthood all by myself. I was there for about 4 hours. My boyfriend knew about it but could not come with me because it was on a friday, during school. Because of this I had to be back before school was over because I was his, and my younger brother’s, ride home. I had blood work done, then counseling, then an ultra sound. As I was lying on the table having the ultra sound, I looked over at the screen. The ultra sound tech showed me my fetus. She said it was about 12 mm long. After the ultra sound I went into an office and took a pill that would be the first part of a two part medical abortion. Then I drove to school and picked up my boyfriend and brother. The next day I had to insert four pills into my vagina to complete the abortion. About two hours after that I started having unbelievably painful cramps. I couldn’t move it hurt so much. My mother came in and took care of me, asking what was wrong and if I needed anything. I played it off as really bad period cramps. I missed the following monday at school because I was still in so much pain. On tuesday I tried going to school, but I barely made it through, I felt like I was going to pass out from the pain and also because I was so weak. I bled for a month. Now I would be a few days past being 6 months pregnant. My baby would have been due on October 11, 2005. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about what I did. I deeply regret my descision and there are no words that can describe that pain of knowing that you killed your child. I cry often and I marvel at the fact that my body has continued on like nothing ever happened. My mind is what will never forget and never completely heal. At times I look down and fully expect to see something there but there is nothing. The medication ended my physical pregnancy but it could not stop the mental part of it. My boyfriend and I are still the only one’s who know and we are still together, coming up on 2 and a 1/2 years. I don’t know his feelings on what happened, he says he feels nothing, I don’t know if this is true but it still makes me unexplainably sad. I think I feel enough for the both of us, and more. I hope this helps you in your descision.

I just wanted to say I applaud you on your decision. I am a single mother of 2 very wonderful, special, amazing little boys. My youngest, Alex, was a definite surprise to me. His father and I were living together. I had health problems which pregnancy can complicate in more ways than one. When his father found out I was pregnant, he left me, alone, pregnant and frightened. I am not in the same boat as most scared, single mothers, but I would like to say I was worried i woudln’t be able to handle 2 children on my own without a partner. My family was supportive, to a point. My brother suggested adoption, but I knew I would have this baby no matter what. My son is 7 months old now. He is absolutely wonderful. He is a happy, healthy, beautiful little boy. I am grateful everyday that I chose to have him. I cannot imagine my life without him in it. Although every day is a challenge lol…I welcome it. Love your baby as much as you possibly can. Do not worry if people do not warm up right away, they will. Good luck..

Kim

Post edited by: Julie, at: 2005/07/26 14:48