Pregnant, Loved, but Alone,

So this is my story. I just signed up today so I’m VERY new to this site. I’ll try to make my story easy to follow 🙂

I’m 20. A Sophomore in college with a GPA of 3.65. I got on the pill at a young age because my periods are evil and made me sick on more than one occasion. I didn’t get on it for pregnancy prevention.

I started dating my boyfriend Sophomore year in high school, and I’d already known him a year. He’s my best friend, my boyfriend, and my everything.

I waited until I was out of High School to have sex. It wasn’t until exactly New Years for 2009. Age 18. We used condoms and I was still on the pill. But I didn’t tell him I was on the pill because I wanted to be as safe as possible.

After I started college I moved to the East Coast to live in the dorms, and he lives on the West Coast, where my family lives. So I normally only get to see him summer and winter break, but this year was different.

This year he enlisted in the Army (Cavalry Scouts) so I booked a last minute flight to come home and see him for spring break. I didn’t know I was paying hundreds of dollars to get pregnant.

I was on the pill and using a condom, it just goes to show you anything can happen. I’ve told him but no one else. I don’t want to abort. I was debating it but I just couldn’t do it. I went to the mall to think, and a little girl with curly red hair and blue eyes was playing “hide and seek” with me over a booth where I grabbed lunch. That’s when I knew I couldn’t kill a part of me and someone I love.

But I am worried because I will be alone and pregnant. My boyfriend leaves for training at Fort Knox on May 18th- 3 days after I get back. He will be gone 16 weeks. He said he will support me no matter what I chose to do. He agrees with keeping our child. I will only be able to write him.

After boot he will be able to visit me for a maximum of 2 weeks, I will be about 25 weeks pregnant. Then he will be stationed who knows where. We are going to work on letting me finish college at the school I am at. Which means I will be alone. Alone. With all family on the West Coast.

My rents will freak out, I don’t know how his will act. But I think since we have figured it out they will need to suck it up or they won’t have their grandchild in their life.

After college I plan on getting an apt near what ever base he’s stationed at so he can have a relationship with them. Marriage is an option but he would need to ask. I told him I don’t want this to be the only reason. We’re setting up a shared bank account when I get home. (his idea).

If it is a boy he will be naming him.
If it’s a girl I will name her:
Charlotte Jean Rogers. “Lottie”

I have my first appointment this Friday. I am glad I found out at only around 5 weeks; because I’m on the pill I only get my period every three months. I’m glad I found out when I was still able to make a choice.

How can I deal with being totally alone and worried about him?

Am I making the right choice? Or should we adopt, I know that things will be tight and I need to stay in college.

He was already going to be in life forever, friend or more, so I’m glad it was with him.

<3

P.S. I'm pro-choice. I just choose not to. And I know it's a hard choice.