hey,
I am so glad that you want to parent your child! But I do understand the difficulties that you face in Japan. Even though this is hard, you are making the right decision not to terminate your pregnancy. Just stick with it. You know in your heart what is right.
I’m not sure where you live in Japan, but if you can find a Christian church there, they will help you. I suggest that you look on the internet to find one that is close to you. You will be welcomed there. They will care about you.
I suggest that you give them a call and tell them about your situation. They will understand and help you. You will be ok and you will be able to get through this.