My Story

Hey , Im Coley I Would B 5 Months Pregnant..

Well It All Started In ,,,

In October He Went To A Party And Kissed Another Girl Then Got In Bed With Her.. He Told Me It Was The Drink And It Didn’t Mean Anything So I Let It Pass .. Then My friend Recently Borrowed His Laptop And Came Across Some Old Chat logs.. (Starting From The Night After The Kiss Up Until December).. Saying He Loved Her And How He Was Going To Leave Me For Her And Things .. I Think What Hurst The Most Is The Fact He Told Her He Was Single .. I Always Say Him As Some Who Would Never Hurt Me .. How Wrong Was I ?

A Few Weeks Later .. alarm Bells Started Ringing I Was Feeling Sick Every Morning .. He Noticed And Asked If There Was A Chance I Could Be Pregnant .. I Burst Into Tears And Nodded Yes..

Well On The Way Home From School He Bought A Pregnancy Test Home , I Was Praying It Would Say No , But Knowing What It Would Say .. And I Was Right Positive .. He Freaked Out And Left .. Didn’t Speak To Me For A Week .. Until I Cornered Him And We Discussed It .

We Decided We Was Going To Keep It , We Weren’t Going To Tell My Parents Until 3 Months , 1 Month Went By , Then 2 , Then 3 .. And I Didn’t Have The Courage To Tell My Mom , Month 4 Slowly Passed , This Month More Difficult Than The Rest .

Well Later In The Week I Was Sitting Watching Television With My Nephew .. I Felt This Unbearable Pain In My Stomach I Called My Boyfriend And He Came Over The Pain Went Away..About An Hour Later I Went Into The Kitchen To Get A Drink..I Turned Round And My Boyfriend Was Shouting .. I Looked Down And All I Was Was A Pool Of Blood On The Floor..

We Went To The Hospital .. And My Worst nightmare Came Alive .. I Had Lost Not Only One Baby But 2 .. Twins.

Days Went By And All I Could Think About Was My Babies .. The Grief Got So Bad It Actually Felt Like Physical Pain.. My Heart Hurt I Felt So Alone.

Me And My Boyfriend Went Down Hill From Then ..

But Looking Back All I Can Think Of Is Treasure What You Have..

While You Have It .. Loss Is Something every one Has To Go Through But No One Really Talks About.

You Are Not Alone. Never Alone.

Were Now In March And Im 5 Weeks And 2 Days Pregnant .. But Ill Never Forget The Twins.

Me And My Boyfriend ?.. Well Only Time Can Tell

Love To You All .. And Remember Your Never Alone..x