Mother vs. College

Hi girls! I have been a member on here since 2007- how time has flown is beyond me!- since I got pregnant and now I have an adorable, healthy little 3 year old. I am now 18 and in my freshman year of college at The University of Tennessee. I am not with his father, who lives in another state, and my little boy stays with his grandparents and sees me generally every other weekend and on holidays. Right now, I am facing a couple different decisions with my battle between college and being a mother. I absolutely love my college town and the huge SEC football games, I have made some amazing friends who love both my son and I, and I am in an awesome university that I worked my butt off to get into. I love everything about it, except that my little boy isn’t here with me. I am very lucky to be in my situation, but it is so difficult to be in. I have the choice (against my parent’s wishes) to transfer to a smaller 4-year college that is much closer to my son and possibly get an apartment with him, or wait another year to move out with him until I settle on my own. Right now I am 3 hours away and get the normal college life: I’m in a sorority, just being a college student, but it just doesn’t feel like where I want to be. I am always constantly searching and hoping for years to pass so that I can graduate and be a nurse and get on with my life. I feel like my life is on hold from doing what I really want to do. But I don’t know if I need time to just grow up and be an 18, 19, 20, and 21 year old before I become a full-time mom, or is that even right to think about? I need some serious advice about what to do with my situation. Am I just being weak and need to be stronger for my education or am I having a legitimate concern in my wishes? This is a very difficult decision and I might have to go against my parents, as well. I love my parents and am very lucky, but I just don’t know what’s best for my son’s future, as well as mine.