that is really hard, and even though im sure your dad does his best, you may want to talk to a woman close to you.. like a mentor.. if you have a grandmother or an aunt or even a friends mom. there are tons of pregnancy hotlines you can call. i wish i could help more. but i think if you find a woman you are comfortable with and close with she would be willing to help you out. but also, being a mother is part of our nature. it is in our blood basically. our bodies help us to learn how to be a mother with intuition. im not speaking personally because i dont have a child. but its what ive heard from well.. everyone. lol goodluck girl