Know that God had a reason for this baby not coming into the world, and although it won’t be a replacement, you will be able to have another child one day. That doesn’t mean it should be now. Remember why you were scared in the first place. Use that to motivate you to go on to nursing school so that when you do decide to have that third child you’ll be better able to support them. If you feel your depression is beyond what would be normal for such a loss, please talk to a doctor, even if it’s your OB/GYN. I did that when my son was born very prematurely and thank God I did. Give yourself time to grieve, but then honor that child by continuing on with your education so at least your baby’s not making it won’t have been in vain. I’m sure that’s all your loved ones mean if they say you can now go to school.