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June 18, 2010 at 10:51 am #27280cryingstars
I’m writing to share my experience in hopes of receiving advice and/or similar experiences.
I found out I was pregnant a couple months ago when I was only 3 weeks along. The doctor was incredibly suprised, because it was so early…but my HCG level was already high enough to detect a viable pregnancy.
Everything was going fine until this month when I was having cramping and heavy spotting/bleeding. I went into the doctor’s immediatley and they ran an HCG test and it had dropped from last appointment. I was devastated, but the doctor told me that to come back in three days and we would hope for the best.
So on my birthday June 11, I went in for my check up and they told me my HCG level had dropped nearly half which meant a miscarriage. My heart sank to my knees…I had lost my baby :(…even though the baby was definitely a surprise I loved him/her the moment I found out. I feel as if I lost a part of me…and I want nothing more than to have my baby back… 🙁
It’s only been a week since it all happened…and the pregnancy symptoms are slowly fading away…People are telling me that it was for the best I was too young to have a baby…or that it wasn’t even a baby yet…these comments cut me very deeply. How can someone say my baby wasn’t a baby?!—it surely wasn’t an alien inside of me.
I miss my baby everyday and although I was early in pregnancy doesn’t mean I didn’t love my baby… I cry because I never got to hold my baby in my arms…and watch him/her grow up…or smile their first smile and laugh that first contagious baby laugh. All I want is my baby back… 🙁 but God chose to take my baby…all I can do is pray and heal.June 18, 2010 at 10:04 pm #27282Amber
I’m so sorry 🙁 Stories like these make me melt and wanna cry because I can’t stand that thought of someone having to lose their child. I can only imagine how it must feel. But you’re a strong woman and I look up to you for that for not blaming God and trying to be strong. I have never lost a child, let alone been pregnant, but I have seen how greatly a mother-to-be mourns the loss of her child and it’s unbearable to even watch. I apologize again for your loss, I’m praying for you and I do hope things work out for you. Be strong…even though it may seem like it’s impossible, just try because God never puts us through something we cannot handle. God bless…June 20, 2010 at 12:16 pm #27285Anonymous
In such situations no one understands the emotional pain one is in,except you.This is the time somebody needs all the support they can get but other people do not understand that.They force you to get over it quickly,when you are not ready.So take your time and heal at your own pace.Turning to God was the best solution for he is the only one who knows what you are going through.September 10, 2011 at 6:11 am #28327bellasmom2011
I kind of know what you are going through. i lost my son he was 4 months old when he passed away. There is nothing like the pain of losing your child. I am so sorry what happened to you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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