I just want to give you a big hug right now! I totally understand why you regret the abortion..every person has a free will and you used it. Unfortunatley, we sometimes realize we make mistakes. It was not right of your mother to push you to have an abortion. It was your decision, but it is understandable why you chose to do what your Mom wanted you to do. You seem like a very loving and caring person who just made a mistake. Everybody messes up. Time WILL heal your wounds. You will never forget what happened, but you can forgive yourself. Just know…that you are not a bad person in any way, shape, or form. You recognized that it was the wrong thing to do, and feel bad. A bad person wouldn’t be upset over it now would they? Try to remain strong, and forgive yourself. You can’t change what happened, but you have become a better and stronger girl from this experience. Best wishes!!