Hello friend,
I too am sorry for your loss and the pain that remains. It is absolutely normal for a mother to grieve for her baby. It is a natural instinct that you are experiencing to its fullest. You can be comforted though, as I am witnessing by your expression of love and compassion for those innocent souls, that YOU WILL BE A WONDERFUL MOTHER ONE DAY!! If even in the slightlest bit for now, I hope that you can find some consolation in the fact that you have two precious little ones looking down on you. They feel your love, and know what is in your heart.
You are young and have a lot of life to live. In the future, at a different point in your life, you may possibly be blessed with more children. You won’t forget your little ones, but will have something to keep close to your heart when you accept another baby into your life. You will be prepared to accept that life openly, and maternally because you have felt the other side of ‘the loss of life’.
A lot of girls and women here on SUG, including myself, have felt and continue to feel that pain. If you can continue to share your feelings with us and find relief in giving a voice to your pain, the weight of this burden will lighten.
You are in my heart and my thoughts tonight.
God bless you,
myangelsinheaven