I’ve seriously been considering not having children. I almost think it’s not fair to have to abort my 1st one, and then later on in life, just decide again. I really can see myself not having kids at all, or maybe adoption one or 2. Like i’ve seen alot of girls on this site say, there’s just a huge hole in my chest that feels like it’s never going to be filled. I don’t know if I could live like that.
I tried talking to my mom about it (NOTE- I also told her it was my "friend". mom and dad don’t know anything…and it needs to stay that way) and she said it’s a perfectly acceptable way to feel after you do something like that. But she told me to remember that they are just that – Feelings. They come and go, and you may feel like this for the rest of your life, or you might have 4 kids and forget it, or you might never forget it. It’s all about the way you handle your situation. Or more or less, the way it handles you.
I don’t know, maybe I’m crazy. Maybe she’s crazy. She did give birth to me. It’s early, and I’m probably not making sense.
Did anyone else feel like this?