anyone need help?

Hi my name is Anna I am 15 and 6 months pregnant. I am a recovering crystal meth addict and homeless person. My boyfriend of 8 months and I moved from town into Sooke to live with my mom and get our lives stabilized. I got a job at Fields and he took a course that paid 8.00 an hour for training on how to be a good employee. We recently found out that I was pregnant (when I was five months) and even though it was hard, we’ve decided to keep it. Money shouldn’t be a huge problem, we have a savings fund set up that is rapidly adding up daily (100 dollars was contributed randomley just today) and we’ve accumaleted quite a few baby things, stroller, jumper, snugglies, clothes…etc. etc. but now and then I find myself bawling my eyes out uncontrallably. Sometimes I even feel that I don’ want the baby which makes me feel absolutely horrible and guilty…I just want to be able to provide and support our child and be the best Mom I can be but I am so terrified. I have lots of feelings of isolation and overwhelming loneliness…I have been having a little bit of nagging depression but after on suicide attempt a few years back that left me with an impaired liver and a trip to the psychiatric hospital I have chosen to remain here and do the best damn job that I can. I just feel so hopeless at times and I’m sure you can relate…This website may very well prove to be a blessing for me because I swear, I’m getting pretty tired of my old friends asking me if I’m drinking tonight and then looking really stupid and saying Oooh right…I guess I’ll see you around then. I just want someone to tell me that they’ve been there and that you can make it through all this. I’d love to here from you. Thanks, Anna