An update from me

Hi all,
I haven’t been on this site since about last september. With everything that was going on, i needed time off.
I didn’t end up having my second child adopted. She was looked after by somebody else for 3 months, but i did visit, and took the time i needed to work through things. I had PND which is truly horrible, but once things started to get a bit better on that front, i felt more able to be a mother.
Now, my oldest daughter is turning 2 next month. It feels just yesterday that i was finding this site, terrified, not knowing what was going to happen in the coming months and having conflicted opinions thrown at me. I found out i was pregnant with my second child when Jess was 4 months old. I was shocked. I was on the pill, but did have this ‘feeling’ that i was pregnant, and tested positive pretty early. That was about the only thing that was early with her – she liked being in utero so much she stayed up there 11 extra days making a speedy entrance at home on my birthday last july.
I still don’t feel like I can talk to a forum about what i went through following her birth, but for those of you that have had PND, you may have some understanding that it is by no means fun.
Fastforward to now… Jess is a happy healthy still red haired almost 2 yr old toddler. Super active with a slight addiction to ‘shaun the sheep’. ALyssa, (lissy) is a very porky 10 and a bit months old. She has 2 teeth which she only got around to growing last month so a bit slow in that dept. They keep me very busy. Me…well in january this year i found out the best news i had in a long time. I had been offered a place to study midwifery at uni – the same uni i was studying archaeology at before jess was born. I am almost one semester in and absolutely loving it. Its hard, but so rewarding. Especially when the women i am following through (going to their antenatal appts, the birth and postnatal appts with them) have their babies. Birth is truly an amazing thing, and i feel priviledged to be able to work towards a career as a midwife.
I will try to get on here once in a while, but feel free to email me if you like – i think there is an email option on my profile.
Kylie