AM I PREGNANT?

I HAVE MISSED MY PERIOD FOR TWO MONTHS NOW AND I DONT KNOW IF IM PREGNANT OR NOT I TOOK AN HOME PREGNANCY TEST LAST MONTH AND IT CAME OUT NEGATIVE I HAVE BEEN TIRED THEN USUAL AND I HAVE NOTICED MY WEIGHT GAIN BUT I THINK MAYBE ITS JUST WATER RETENTION FROM ME GETTING OFF THE PILL BUT IM NOT SURE I THINK THAT IM IN DENIAL ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING THATS WHY I HAVENT BEEN TO THE DOCTOR YET AND YOU WANNA KNOW SOMETHING SOO HORRIBLE IS THAT I WORK IN A DOCTORS OFFICE SO IF I WANTED TO KNOW IT WOULDNT BE SO HARD AS IN FINDING OUT SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙁 🙁