I don’t know how great my advice would be but I just wanted to let you know i’m here and we are all here for you. Please forgive yourself about the abortion- from what it sounds like you had a lot of pressure from his end when you made that decision so you cannot blame yourself so much for it. I know your pain must be absolutely horrible right now especially being pregnant and having your husband say those things, and that is why I just wanted to say that I’m here for you. I’m sorry I can’t give you any better advice but sometimes someone just needs to know that they are not alone:) Whenever you feel like you can’t go on anymore just know that you are a strong woman and you must be strong for your kids. I know that will be hard- sometimes it is impossible to muster the energy to go on everyday when you are pregnant and depressed at the same time like I was last year but you can do it I know you can. Dig deep inside yourself. You are not alone in this we are all here for you.