Well, my name is [redacted], and I am pregnant once again. I am having a boy and I am due August 28th. I already have a 4-year-old daughter. I am only 18.
Both of my kids have the same dad, but he isn’t in the picture anymore. We dated in high school and I got pregnant. He left school and I didn’t see him again till November. I moved in with him. He has never seen our son and he has only seen an ultrasound for this baby. When I moved in with him, at first it was great. Then, slowly over the 6 1/2 months we were together, it became hell. He would throw the furniture around and break my things, yell at me, tell me I was worthless, etc. I put up with it cause I didn’t have anywhere to go. He kicked me out and I now live with my sister. It is hard living here cause my room is very small and the baby’s stuff has to be in my room. I am trying to save my money to get me my own place but I only make $75 a week cause I’m a live-in nanny for my sister 🙁
I have been living here for almost 2 months now and every day I grow more and more depressed that I won’t make it. I am stressed all the time due to my kids’ father who won’t leave me alone. He calls and texts me all the time and won’t leave me alone on Facebook either. He has never paid me anything for either of the kids. He claims that he wants me back and that things have changed. That he isn’t the same and all he wants is me, even though he is dating some girl. Yet he calls and texts saying he loves me and only me. My sister’s kid that I watch is 10 months old and is in everything. Plus I’m trying to work things out with my family and it just seems that no one really wants me. I know this stress is bad for the baby and I try not to be stressed, but nothing seems to work. The harder I try, the harder I fall it seems.
Idk how many blogs I’ve written on other sites. No one ever comments back and I really need someone to talk to. Since I have moved, I have really no friends and my sis works all the time, and I really get no time to myself. Plus I’m worried that when the baby comes I won’t be able to take care of my sister’s kid and my baby at the same time and if that happens I will lose my income and won’t be able to save back for anything I need or for the baby.
Plz I need someone to talk to.
