Hi to all. Yes, I am a man. It still hurts. I am going to cut to the chase. I am 40 years old now and divorced. I was married to my high school sweetheart for 14 years and we had three amazing daughters.

At one point, my then-wife, for reasons unknown to me, decided not to tell me she was pregnant for the second time. Our first was only about two. I found out she was pregnant when we went on a road trip through Nevada. We were in the middle of nowhere between Vegas and Reno when she complained of bad cramps and wanted me to pull over. I complied. This is very hard for me to share!! Yet I must… I thought she was going pee. But when she got back in the car, I saw something in her face I can’t explain. I asked if she was okay. She answered, “Yes, let’s get out of here!!” Something in her tone made me scared. I turned off the car and went outside to look where she had been. I don’t know why I went to look. What I found was two, yes two, … God help me, this is hard!!!  She admitted to me she had been taking speed in hopes it would abort the babies..  I can not continue…

I cry even to this day for the children I will never know.