Life has changed. I went from a married woman to a mom. Wow. Thats so insane! I am having a lot of trouble adjusting, and am experiencing postpartum, and its hard. I didnt think it was going to be this hard. My mother in law watches my daughter a lot, thats where she spends most of her days. My doctor has advised me not to be alone with her for any extended amount of time, not that I would do anything to her. I dont believe in hitting a child or anything like that. It's just she doesnt want me to panic, and loose control of myself in a different way. Hard to explain. Also my grandmother, the woman who raised me, dies this last saturday. So life is chaotic for me..