I was 21 when I was supposed to have my baby.  But I didn’t. I made the wrong choice and had an abortion.

I didn’t know how to speak up.  I let other people convince me that that was the right choice, even though my heart was telling me it was wrong.  It has been a year since my abortion and not one day goes by that I don’t think about it. Sometimes, I can not even get out of bed in the morning because I just lay there and think about what I did. I feel so empty inside and I feel like a terrible person because of what I did. (Hopefully, my story can help anyone out there trying to make a decision).

MY STORY: I got pregnant in Feb, my due date was October 31. I remember telling my boyfriend that I was pregnant, just crying in his arms. I was scared,  but then he told me we could get through everything.  I thought to myself for the next couple of days. I am going to start eating better, and I even went out and bought a book that takes you step by step through your pregnancy. Then a day came that my boyfriend and I were really confused on what to do. He thought about the decision of an abortion, and I thought to myself NO WAY. But the next thing I can remember is just going to go see the clinic to see what I thought. I wasn’t going to have the abortion. Then all I can remember is being so comfortable in there and I was looking at all these girls about 50 of them, all in a blue suites that the clinic puts you in.  The next thing I hear is my name being called to be put in a private room and I am laying on a cold table with a suction tube lying next to me.  Then I go to sleep.  Waking up half an hour later. Feeling so sad that words can’t describe.

I would take back what I did in a heart beat. My depression was so bad after that I could not leave my apartment. If I saw a baby or pregnant women, I couldn’t help but cry.  I have been seeking help and getting better but like I say there is not one day that goes by that I don’t think about that WRONG decision I made that day.

If anyone out there is thinking about an abortion, hopefully my story will help you in your decision making.