It has been nearly a year since I chose to have an abortion and recently accepted I am suffering with post-abortion syndrome.

I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant and 17, 8 weeks pregnant when I chose to have an abortion. Now I believe that decision was made to please my mum and boyfriend. I had convinced myself at the time and for many months after that what I did was the right thing, when it wasn’t.

It is the first and last thing I think of everyday and living with this guilt and depression is breaking me down. I cry myself to sleep every night due to this. I believe things have gotten worse recently as two of my boyfriend’s cousins, who are the same age, have a child, and one is expecting. It breaks my heart that I can’t even be happy for them because I am so upset and jealous of them.