….if after giving birth will i still look presentable?



i dreamed to become a model someday,and designeed my own clothes to dress great and to walk into a runway show..

but suddenly i have waken up into that dream. what i dreamed just vanished for just a simple curiousness let me to a destroyed road of success.. i thought i was so close enough of what i dreamed.. cause they said that i got the looks.. the body and the brain, but all of a sudden my affection burst i was blinded by my ego and hatred,, i destroyed my own dream….. the dream that i have planned..



and now., should i blame myself?