So I recently found out I am pregnant, 9 weeks to be exact.
It’s kind of crazy that me getting into an accident is how I would find out I am pregnant. When I was told by one of the ER nurses, I wasn’t shocked because it didn’t hit me at the time. I told the guy that same night. I was hoping he would’ve been supportive, but he freaked. He wants me to get an abortion because he’s not ready to be a dad again. Him and I were never really together, just two good friends who enjoyed each other’s company, I guess you could say. I can honestly say we are no longer good friends or friends at all. I was for an abortion mainly because kids terrify me, but once I saw my baby during an ultrasound, everything changed.
Personally, I believe the father of my baby hates me because I wouldn’t get an abortion. We no longer talk, mainly because I thought he was my friend, but some of the stuff he’s said have been so hurtful that I don’t want my baby around that. Who knows, he could have said hurtful things because he’s scared and in shock. But it’s not fair if he’s scared or whatever because I’m the one carrying the baby and never made any harsh statements to him about this whole situation. I’m scared because I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m going to be raising this child as a single parent. He says he doesn’t want another baby so I basically made the choice and told him that I don’t expect anything from him. I’m just thankful that I have my family by my side and that’s all that matters. Lately though, I been sad thinking how someone who once said they cared and would always be there can just turn their back on something they help made. Somedays, I cry all day because I’m hurt at the reality of how fake people could be.
I’m just confused and sad about my situation, but I want to be happy…