I’m 18 years old and I just graduated from high school and am almost finished with my medical assisting certification in college. Just last week, I was diagnosed with congenital heart failure. Which sucks, because I really wanted to have a baby someday. But with the heart failure, it would make the situation way too hard, for both me and the baby… It’s sad but stuff happens, I guess.

Since I was told, I’ve pushed my boyfriend away… I don’t want him to stay with me and have to suffer and cry throughout the procedures that are going to be going on… My blood type is O-, so when it comes to the point if I were to need a heart transplant. It would take a long while till I would get it… I’m really confused!!!!!!!! I cry a lot, not because of the condition, but because I don’t want to risk having a baby that may come out also with some kind of defection… I also don’t want to have a baby and not see them grow… I want to be there for their first day of school, and the first boyfriend or girlfriend, and their prom and wedding… I want to be there when they cry to hold them and tell them it’s going to be OK… I don’t want to have my pride and joy in my life… Then for mine to end so soon… I can’t go on like this…

Umm, please give me some Advice someone!!!!!!!