My head is a whirl wind of thoughts, and has been since I last had my period on 28th Oct! Trying to conceive a baby is not so straight forward as I would have wished for. I have done 2 pregnancy tests, both negative, but I can’t believe either!!!

I WANT TO BE PREGNANT……………………

Now either my body’s playing tricks on me and I’m going mad by having phantom pregnancy…………. Sore boobs, feeling sick, no period, and generally just feeling different!!!

Or I am pregnant & the tests just haven’t registered it!!!

I’m 42 so age goes against me, but I am very fit (as in active)…..running!!

I have a 2-year-old whom I still breast feeding, my periods came back in July……… So they still could be settling down. (I don’t want to believe that)!!

I wish I could switch my head off for a while, I keep going to the toilet checking to see if my period has started……….. I find myself giving my boobs a quick poke to see if they’re still tender (which they are)……….

I love being a mum………& my desire for another baby is so intense……… I feel very guilty for wanting another child when I have been blessed with 3! My son is 20, then my daughter’s 17, and then there’s my toddler who’s 2 🙂