My name is Jen and I'm 22 years old. I'm 7 weeks pregnant with my first child. I'm a senior in college with one more semester to go and a possible job after I graduate. This pregnancy is supposed to be the greatest moment of my life but nothing seems to be going right.
My boyfriend who I've been with for 4 years says he wants nothing to do with a baby. I love him so much and this is tearing me apart. He says he can't understand why I'm willing to just throw away what we have and everything I've worked for.
He doesn't understand that I can't kill my child, although I did think of
it. And every now and then I go back to that thought because I don't want him to leave me. I'm afraid of being a single mother. Even though my
closest friends who I've told say they'll be there for me. It's nothing
compared to the support he could provide as the father of my child.
I can't believe he's acting like this. He tells me that he loves me everyday but ever since I told him I was pregnant he's been in his own
world. He refuses to even acknowledge the baby. My friends say that I should just leave him alone and he's no good if when I need him the most he can't be a man and stand up to his responsibilities.
I'm crying as I write this, I've been crying everyday since I found out I
was pregnant. I haven't told my parents as yet because I know my mom's
going to lose it. I feel so alone and my heart is breaking.
I try to avoid stress because I'm clinically depressed and since I got
pregnant I've had to come off the meds because I think they'll harm the
baby. I just don't know how to get my boyfriend's support. He said I've
messed the plan up. Which was to graduate get married and have 2 yrs
before we had kids.
I feel awful, this is all my fault, I have no idea what to do.