Hi to all frightened pregnant woman out there,
Two years ago I fell pregnant. My current boyfriend at that time did not care about me and was to selfish to even consider my feelings. When he found out that I was pregnant, he ran away so fast. He stopped calling me and did not return any of my calls either.
Despite this, I was happy to become a mommy. I had
just obtained my degree and had a good enough job to support the baby. Just when I thought I could do this, 9 weeks into the pregnancy I found out that my baby was severly deformed. Doctors told me that the baby would not live past 1 week after being born, if born at all. Abortion was my only option. I had gone to 4 doctors and they all refused to handle my pregnancy due to the severity of the deformation.
I made the difficult choice of aborting my baby. It is something that I still can’t get over to this day. I think about my baby everyday.
I am now married to an incredible man, that loves me. At present I’m unable to conceive and my past choice now haunts me even more. Sometimes I feel that my choice to kill my first child has led to me never being able to be blessed with another baby again. I wasn’t given the choice by doctors but in the end it is I that needs to answer to God one day. God has forgiven me but I still need to forgive myself. This has been a difficult journey but I know that I can make it.
If you have your baby, you may face difficulties now being parents disapproval, school pressures etc. but it is a decision that you will never regret.
I ask you, no, I beg you…. please don’t see abortion as an option. Its a decision that you will never be able to live with. Its a decision that may cost you more when you want to be happy with your husband.
Sometimes i feel anger towards woman that still makes a decision to abort their healthy babies but I know that it is their choice in the end.
I hope my story has changed your mind.