Hi my name is Jazmine I am 18 years old and I have been dealing with a lot of pain inside of me for the past 4 years now.
When I was in the 8th grade one of my guy friends introduced me to one of his friends at the beginning of the school year. The guy and I hit it off and began to talk on the phone all the time. At the time I was 12 years old and he was 15. One day he asked me to be his girl friend and I said yes. He used to talk about sex all the time, but we never went through with it until….
It was the the summer before i was going to the 9th grade and I decided to give in to all his peer pressure and loose my virginity to him. I was 13 years old not knowing what I was getting myself into. We had sex 3 times that summer and surprisingly the 3rd time was a charm. When he came he told me he came inside of me and that the condom had failed. I did not know what to think. A month later my period did not come.
I told my boyfriend and he was speechless. Every time I brought up anything about the baby he didn't want to hear it. So eventually I gave up on him being apart of my life and my child's life.
I was 13 almost 14. Prego. Alone. Depressed.
I was stressed with how i was i going to tell my mom. I knew she was going to be completely distraught. I cried all the time trying to get up enough courage to tell my mom, but I never could. The only people I had told was my best friend and my boyfriend.
Months and months went by. Labor Day, Halloween, My Birthday(11-10), Thanksgiving, and Christmas. It was almost time to go back to school and I was on the phone with my best friend and she just kept telling me I needed to tell my mom and stop hiding my pregnancy since I was so far along. As soon as I got off the phone with BFF I called my mom at her job and told her I was pregnant. She was highly upset. She told me I couldn't have my baby. I was devastated. She told me to get dressed and immediately took me to the doctor. He tested my urine and sure enough I was pregnant. I got an ultrasound and he said I was 22 1/2 weeks prego. My mom was so stuck on me getting an abortion and that was the last thing I thought she would say. My mom gave me NO choice. Either she disowned or I get rid of it. I had no one to turn to. I felt like it wasn't even my baby anymore. Since I was so far along I had to drive to have an induced abortion in Atlanta, Georgia at 24 weeks.
Even though I was so young I still wanted to have my baby and raise her. She was apart of me and my mom took that away from me. To this day I live with this pain inside of me. Sometimes I sit and cry because I know I would have been able to do everything possible for my child, but my mom took my chance away from me. I yearn for another child so much. I pray to God that he will bless me to give the gift of life.