I am in so much pain constantly emotionally. I had an abortion in February. I never wanted to do it. My boyfriend convinced me. He didn’t even come with me to the clinic. He picked me up but that’s all. I remember the night before the abortion, I was with my friend who was coming with me and I just cried and cried and cried. I didn’t want to go through with it. I was almost four months pregnant! it was weird because when I’d be walking, I’d always hold my tummy, not realizing I was even doing it.

I think I wanted to protect my baby. Even though I killed them in the end. It’s not easy. I think about my baby every day of my life. I cry myself to sleep most nights and have random breakdowns. I don’t regret getting pregnant. I regret the abortion. My baby would’ve been about a month old.

I’ll always be a mum, just my baby will be in heaven.

If I ever have any other children, I will make sure they know about their little brother or sister that is watching over them from heaven. I talk to her all the time and tell her I’m sorry. I just fear that she hates me. Cause I sure hate myself. I’d give up anything just to have her with me right now.

Even my youth worker told me to have the abortion. I would’ve done it though. I would’ve had a reason to live. Where as now, I don’t. I have a reason to die and that’s to go to heaven and be with my child.

Please consider EVERY option before abortion. You will regret it.