It takes time to finally put all behind you and move on. God knows i still miss him but im moving on for me. Its hard to forget sum 1 you have been with for years and harder when you have lived together, shared the same bed, cryed together, but his apology now wont change things. Ladies dont stay with a man who abuses you, even if you love him to bits get out and let him get  help dont be the victim because it will always haunt you. Im glad i found this site because it has helped me be stronger and able to move on.